I still sleep with a stuffed animal..

And that’s the truth..

As my sophomore year of college wraps itself up, this is what I’ve learned: high school never ends. Yep, Bowling for Soup said it best.

It doesn’t matter how old you get, people are seriously always going to be crappy, judgmental and self concerned. Its just the way it is.

But here’s the thing, I’ve whined about these people all year. The stuck up cliques, the daddy’s girls who get everything they want, the users, the heartbreakers, the whores. They’ve all hurt me, annoyed me and affected me but not necessarily in a bad way. Why?

I’ll tell you why… We have to be around good people to see that we’re doing wrong and we have to be around bad people to see that we’re doing right. If we lived in a world full of all of the same people, we would never see our own flaws or our best qualities.

So although I’ve complained about how I can’t stand bad friends, or backstabbers, or sluts, it’s honestly shown me exactly what I don’t want to be. I think that’s the best thing anyone can do, become self-aware.

If you look for the good in a bad situation, you can find it. My sophomore year of college has been hell and no one will ever understand half of it but they don’t have to. I grew and I learned from it all.

Everything happens for a reason and that’s the truth.

Laugh it up.

Everyone has them. Those days when your iPhone app says that it’s suppose to be 75 degrees and sunny and you would look out the window but you live in the basement of your dorm. Then of course, when you go outside it’s 55 degrees and raining and you don’t have a jacket or an umbrella. Yeah, it’s been one of those days. Except to top it off, I woke up late, I wore heels half the day and things progressively got worse. 

Wanna know the most annoying thing in the world? Being your own worst critic. We all do this too. You wake up, your hair is doing weird shit, you have a random zit that came out of nowhere, those jeans that fit fine Saturday are snug and you have no idea where your keys are. Yeah, that’s about how today went as well.

I hate to complain. I really do. But I just feel like as the semester comes to an end, things just keep getting crappier. And who would I be if I didn’t write a blog about my annoying day?

Anyway, I hope everyone is having a better time than me. And I hope everyone is seeing the sunshine instead of the rain. I’m trying but I think with being positive comes the ability to make fun of your bad days. So, there is my bad day… Laugh it up that I squirted an orange in my eye, I had Carrie Bradshaw hair all day and I totally screwed up my diet by eating a brownie. 

Night kittens.

It doesn’t mean I’m lonely when I’m alone.

I believe that people do exactly what they want. But should they? Is it really okay to hurt people’s feelings just because you want to? Or cheat, just because you want to? Or yell and cuss, just because you want to? What makes it okay for people to treat each other badly?

Want to know the answer?

It’s the mere fact that we allow it. Not that us allowing it makes it okay, but we fuel the fire by letting these people in our lives. The truth is, if we shut those people out, the ones who yell, who bring you down, who tell you you’re insecure, who call you a bitch, who call you whiny, who call you fat, who call you ugly, if we shut those people out, what will they gain? Nothing. People thrive off of reactions. If you let someone treat you bad over and over again, they’re going to keep treating you bad. But more importantly, if you react, they get off. It’s a thrill to see someone else affected by your words. Am I right?

So that’s that. People can do what they want but you can choose how it affects you. No one wants to lose a friend, walk away from a relationship, be the outcast going at it alone, but when being alone becomes better than dealing with mean and hurtful people, who cares?